De-Nesting

I take back my last post.  I haven't cleaned hardly at all since last week!  I'm actually having to motivate myself today to get some cleaning done.  Man am I a roller coaster!

Nesting

It's kind of frustrating, because it's all I have time for.  Ever since I started working part time, all I've been doing at home is cleaning things out.  I've gone through the garage and all the rooms in our house except for our bedroom and thrown away junk or set stuff aside for a garage sale.  Now I want to go back through every room and clean clean clean.  I'd really like to be spending time learning to sew or learning how to use my camera better, but I have a feeling from now until the baby comes (God willing) that I will be continuously cleaning. 

One of my desires through this whole process is not to get caught up in hooplah or be on a babymoon.  That mainly means not buying tons of stuff and not having a baby shower (although there are other reasons I don't want a shower).  But I also need to realize that nesting shouldn't get obsessive.  Certainly there is nothing wrong with having a clean house for a new baby, but having every inch cleaned and sanitized is not necessary.  Since I am prone to obsessiveness with cleaning as it is, I need to really watch what I'm doing so I can focus on things that are much more fun and meaningful than cleaning.  (Good accountability question, ladies!)

Ultrasound

We went to the ultrasound appointment and found out it is a girl!

My Favorite Song (for now)

I don't know why exactly, but I hear these words in the song and they paint a beautiful picture of Heaven for me:

Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That disappear when she smiles
Heaven is the place
Where she calls my name
Says, “daddy please come play with me for awhile”

God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more
But God, You know that this is what I’m aching for
God, You know I just can’t see beyond the door

So right now
Heaven is the sound of her breathing deep
Lying on my chest, falling fast asleep while I sing
And Heaven is the weight of her in my arms
Being there to keep her safe from harm while she dreams

And God, I know it’s all of this and so much more
But God, You know that this is what I’m longing for
And God, You know I just can’t see beyond the door

But in my mind’s eye
I can see a place
Where Your glory fills every empty space
All the cancer is gone
Every mouth is filled
And there’s no one left in the orphans’ bed
Every lonely heart finds the one true love
And there’s no more goodbye
And no more “not enough”
And there’s no more enemy (no more)

Heaven is a sweet, maple syrup kiss
And a thousand other little things I miss with her gone
Heaven is the place where she takes my hand
And leads me to You
And we both run into Your arms

Oh God, I know, it’s so much more than I can dream
It’s far beyond anything I can conceive
So God, You know I’ll trust in You until I see

Heaven in the face of my little girl

Words & music by Steven Curtis Chapman

Matched

We are hoping to adopt a baby who is due the end of March/beginning of April!  As I've mentioned before, nothing is certain until after the birthmother signs the adoption papers, which can be no sooner than three days after the birth.  So we are hopeful that this is it, but also know that the whole situation is in God's hands.  We do not yet know whether it is a boy or a girl, but we are hoping to find out soon.